“REDUCE REDUCE REDUCE”—
My dear Marcel, I fear my mind has mangled
your words into a horrible, twisted monstrosity.
—“was my thought…
my aim was turning inward.”
How diseased must be a brain to turn your muses
into fuel for an unhealthy desire?
I am not so far lost as not to be saved,
but the new fears it brings outweigh the old
that prevented a complete collapse of “normalcy”…
A thread encircles my ordinary waist,
braiding thicker and stronger every day,
and I can’t take the constant ravel-unravel.
I’m not sick enough,
yet the pivotal point
may have my footsteps on it.
‘Cause I can’t
drowning in shame.