Obsession

Written January 29, 2011

Obsession:
Your warnings won’t stop me.
I’ll thumb through the database,
letting you do my addition,
hoping, praying—
that you’ll tell me
I’m not doing enough.

I know.
I just want to be sure.

This is my way
of getting there faster.
This is my way
to feel in control.
This is my way
of pursuing personal pride.

I’ll be all right;
I promise.
But if not,
I don’t really mind.