Okayokayokay

Written January 21, 2015

sometimes i can’t think straight and i
worry that there is something else:
am i splitting, am i dissociating, am i
losing my mind?

i can’t focus and i don’t know if it’s
because i have a problem or
because i think i have a problem

okayokayokayokay.

dementia delirium schizophrenia
is it clinical they say i’m clinical
ly depressed and i wonder
what are the long term fx of
the inadvisably broken rx
that have made me okay

(okayokayokay?)

what if it’s been a slow progression
since i couldn’t do differential
equations or simple arithmetic
expressions and do i have poor
memory retention or an inability
to maintain concentration?
sometimes i don’t know if i’m
okay, okay?

maybe i have no reason
to be scared but i am,
okay?